I’m gonna write about my favorite subject, but I talk about it least. Myself…
I’ve been playing a lot of guitar. It’s not as easy as everyone thinks to learn, I’m practicing for at least an hour a day and I feel like slowly but surely I’m getting better. I destroy picks like my hands have the devils grip. They break in half or split and start to sound funky on the guitar. I’ll look down at my right hand and think, “damn another one?” I’ll have to find someone that knows how to play guitar to make sure I’m doing it right because I don’t think you’re supposed to break this many picks. But if you are supposed to I must be the most amazing guitar learner ever. It doesn’t even matter if I’m playing right or wrong as I’m having fun and I enjoy every moment I’m playing. Constantly trying to better myself at something, just like in my life. I haven’t been this passionate about learning something since I picked up PHP and MYSQL(which I still need to practice more now).
Actually playing is nothing like rockband or guitar hero. Your fingers hurt and they are slow and weak, and every song seems like a mountain of notes you’re desperately trying to climb but can’t remember the correct path. But you strum and strum and strum, hit a wrong note but keep going, learning, memorizing, building finger fortitude. I think one day I want to be “that guy” that just brings his guitar everywhere just to find a beautiful place to play and relax. And I’ll be a rockstar too of course. One thing I couldn’t get enough of when I was in marching band was that the crowd would go crazy for us. Maybe we just had more boisterous parents than everyone else, but it was something else to hear people cheering for you when you were so into something. I loved performing, I knew all eyes were watching but I got into this zone that made me not nervous.
I’m starting a second job on sunday evening. I don’t really want to do it but I don’t have much choice anymore. I’m imagining the endless stupidity of co-workers and bosses that only got where they are because they suck up. I hope its not like that. I’ll go in there and work hard and be so efficient people will wonder why I am working there. As they always do. I was told I was gifted today, I guess they were right. I can pick things up really fast but I need a lot of refinement. It’s like I can make a more straight line than everyone else, once I learn how to draw lines. But I need to figure out a way to show people my talents, so that they will want to pay me be creative in helping them. Get out of this debt slump, unemployment and near minimum wage jobs.
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